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Heart Space

And so I will place my hand here,
On my chest,
I will feel my beat.
I will feel the space.
I will speak sweetly to my heart,
I will tell her it is better to know than to pretend.
Even if the knowing brings the aches.
I will create a shield of discernment for my heart,
Strong but fragile and carried in my own hands first so that I know what she likes.
And as I listen to the pulse beneath my hand I know what she craves.
Peace.
Love.
Protection.
Sensual, kind, interactions.
I assure her, it is safe to stay open and it is her right.
Hearts close too swiftly these days and words are said from fear and pain.
My heart would rather be alive than broken.
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Sealed with light,
– Cassie Jeans


My heart would rather be alive than broken – always. What does it mean to be alive? What does the pulse underneath the cavern of our chest symbolize? Why do we say things like, write your heart out? When our heart aches we feel it. As women, we are told to protect our bodies, to cover up, to make sure we aren’t being suggestive with our clothes because our bodies must be shielded from men? Predators?

But what of our hearts? What would happen if we taught women about the strength and fragility of what lies within her body? The current of her electricity, the beat, the drum as a part of her expanse. A woman’s heart must be known to her first. No one is required to understand what our heart craves if we are still trying to figure it out. In fact, this can be a dangerous game to play. Placing our heart in someone else’s hands before we understand the rhythm of this feeling-organ opens us up to giving our responsibility and power to another who cannot cherish the gift that this is.

More importantly than the body, is a woman’s heart.

The only reason we close off our heart is because of fear. Fear that we can’t trust ourselves, fear that we can’t trust others, fear that keeping our heart open may mean we no longer reflect what we thought we could reflect in order to stay safe. When we know what our heart loves, we know what we say yes to and what we say no to. When our heart is thrown out like a net seeing what it can trap it will bring in great experiences and experiences that bring us to our knees in pain. When we cast our heart out knowing what we have attached to the line, knowing what we draw into ourselves because we know what we are craving and securely longing for, we will only receive and attract what is aligned. 

That is the power of discernment and that my luv, comes with time and dedication. Time spent on learning the nuances of your heartbeat. Dedication towards the journey of your sovereign awakening. Do not rush this. Do not cast out the net if you are not clear on what you want to draw into yourself. Keep your heart open and use a shield of discernment as you cast out the line. 

A few questions you can ask yourself to guide you as you learn to connect with your heart are.

  1. Am I clear on what my heart (soul desire) is craving?
  2. Have I given myself time to connect to my heart whisperings? Do I recognize the sound of my soul?
  3. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how much trust do I have in myself to protect my heart?
  4. What do I know I have to be more discerning about when it comes to opening and sharing my heart?

Write these out and answer them. Ask a trusted friend who is kind and soulfully understands you if any of the questions feel foggy. It is so important to know this about yourself and sometimes, the answers that come back aren’t super pretty but they’re real and honest and can steer us towards the most beautiful gift of self-love. Being in sync with your heart and exercising your right to self-worth will open up the doors for open heart experiences that fuel you instead of close you off to the beauty of love.


Writing is incredible for opening up your heart and learning how to listen to the soul whispers. Writing Coaching can help with this especially when there is an intuitive element to the sessions. Last week I had two conversations with clients that really stood out because of how powerful and eye-opening they were for my client. My style of coaching isn’t only for women who want to write a book. Writing Coaching with me is about connecting your voice, the one that wants to speak but is blocked because there is too much going on in the mind. One call can open up a world of words within you. To begin working with me and experiencing your own intense life transformation send me a message to hello@cassiejeans.com and fill me in on what’s happening in your life and why you want to speak your mind and express your words with your heart. 

 

Breaking the Cycle of Shame

“I mean fuck Mark, do you get off on this or something?”

Words…words…the power of words. Before I knew it I wrote it and it slipped out of my hands and onto a most irritating person.

Now, some of you reading this may be like, ‘Cassie, how could you say that? You write the most beautiful stuff…where did this come from?’ And others reading this may be thinking, ‘not seeing the big deal here.’ Oh the beauty of perspective.

If I may give a backstory to explain why this is causing me such grievance? I recently hired this gentleman to help me with an FB ad. To not go into the annoying details of this transaction I exercised an adequate and compassionate amount of patience and trust in his ability to produce the work that he claimed to be able to do only to find myself in a not-so-pleasant situation. Through a variety of emails sent back and forth over weeks and a refusal on this person’s part to speak to me on the phone I could see that whatever it was that I paid for was not being handled to the best of his ability (or maybe that was his best, who knows) and I had to ask for a refund. The timelines were way off, the results were dismal and the agreements on what was to be delivered were not being delivered.

Truthfully, I don’t like these parts of business. I don’t like conflict. I don’t like drama. I don’t like that this situation brought out the worst in me. There it is, right there. The reason why it is 12:54 AM and I cannot sleep.

Shame, guilt, remorse. I don’t like that through the entire experience I was gracious, kind, understanding and sympathetic to the point of me not standing up for myself in my business and at the very end when I felt I was being completely ignored and steam rolled over I lashed out.

No one would know this though right? No one would know that I said the words that were not at all warranted, no one would know that I feel so crummy that I actually let my ego get in the way of my soul. But that’s not what I’m about. I’m not about only showing the pretty stuff, the love stuff, the “I am calm and centered and desire that all people be loved” part. Yeah, I usually am. I usually don’t hit the send button before I’ve had a chance to cool down but this one got to me.

On any level being ignored really sucks you know? Feeling as if you as a person are not actually being heard…that really gets to me. I pride myself on my ability to be able to listen to a person’s story and respond with love, compassion, understanding. When I found myself in a situation where not only was I being ignored but also I wasn’t really being heard and realized I was being pushed off I retaliated and that really gets to me.

So why share this? Because there is power when we do not carry our shame in silence. I have been thinking about this all day long. I have filed for a dispute and actually have a case so I know I’m not crazy and unreasonable. I have sought guidance and refused to publicly name this person to give him the benefit of the doubt to attempt to rectify the situation and all because of that one sentence I feel like shit. I let myself down and a big part of me feels like I let my community down.

I don’t want to be the coach, heck, I don’t want to be the person who can share only the good stuff and not the stuff that makes me feel less credible. I can share it all and not attach myself to the outcome. I refuse to live my life based on other people’s standards. These are the raw moments…these are the moments when the internal soul shift changes take place.

I know this was a lesson and that even writing this tonight has allowed me to reaffirm within myself how crippling shame and guilt can be in our lives. Will we always live each moment of our lives making the best decisions for ourselves and those around us? No. And when I allow myself to not beat myself up for not responding from love and share the yucky moments in life for whomever is battling with their own demons in their mind I realign my vibrations with the intention to amend the situation and also, to speak into anyone’s life right now who is in the cycle of shame.

It is a vicious cycle and it will steal your joy every single time. You are enough, I am enough. The message of self worth showed up for me beautifully throughout this whole situation and I hope that you are feeling those currents in your life right now as well. Self worth and living a life that is compassionate towards others does not mean choosing to be voiceless when you are being mistreated. Self worth means you speak your truth even when it may not be reciprocated well and you love yourself even when you don’t respond well.

These words do not mean I do not love people. These words mean that I am people. No one is above you, no one is below you. I accept myself for who I am and the love that created me and I ask you to do the same for who you are and the love that was poured into you.

Affirmation: I am at peace with the humanness and the spirit of who I am. I acknowledge both and treat myself and others with compassion, love and understanding.

I can realign..and so can you. The cycle breaks when we own our shame story. (Thank you Brene Brown for you infinite wisdom). So in writing this I literally break my shame story and know that I am still me. I am still worthy of love and abundance and I do not have to second guess who I am. I am free to step into a new day leaving yesterday where it is and embracing the delicious choices that are always there for me.

If this message really spoke to you and you have been carrying around your own shame story for too long find your own way to share it. It doesn’t have to be as public as this is (this is just how I roll) but you can always speak to a trusted friend, email me if you like, or just even get the words out on paper for when that moment of courage strikes you and you are ready to share.

You are never alone in your journey. Love and peace always…yep, I can say those words too. I love me in my mess and when I am in alignment too.

xoxo

*name was changed in order to respect the integrity of the mentioned person as I am not into shaming. And if your name is Mark, I am sure you are a rad human being!

Does Money Stop Us From Going After Our Dreams?

Super personal share…

I could finally put gas in the car. See, for months and months I would pull up at the gas station or would be checking out at the grocery store and I could feel the anxiety mounting up inside of me…

…was there money in the bank? Did I have enough to afford this? If I did that meant I wouldn’t have enough to buy the kids the running shoes they needed…let alone buy myself anything.

I hated it. Maybe you’ve felt this before too?

Building a business from scratch is one of the hardest things you will ever do but there’s a silver lining here. Keep reading.

The greatest investment you can make in your life is yourself. There is no other gift you can give to this world than the gift of a woman fully unleashed and uninhibited.

Truly, you are the gift.

I have come to realize this through many agonizing months of thinking I was a complete and utter failure. That what I was doing wasn’t going to make a difference. That on the outside…

…sure, it may have looked amazing but if you took a look at my bank account I was drowning.

In my heart and in my mind I had it all but patience is the silver lining in all of this. That attribute of the human soul alone will feed you and your family for the future. Did you hear me there?

Patience, belief, trust, grit, tenacity, faith, perseverance. This is what feeds the soul. This is what feeds the future.

I smile as I think about sharing my story on stage. Housewife from small town, creates millions because she chose to follow her heart. How did she do it? She fucking loved people. lol…and had a heck of a lot of help along the way. (SO many people I can thank here…seriously…I could probably thank you!! lol)

So here’s the deal. I want you to have your own version of your very own story. I don’t know where you are at right now but my hunch is that you are a dreamer of the highest being.

My hunch is that you believe with only half of your heart right now that you have a purpose and a calling. My hunch is that you’re scared to feel deeply again and that disappointment has plagued your life for far too long.

Would you like to be free now? Free to live life on your terms. Free to kick fear in the ass and let her fuel you as opposed to paralyze you.

Total transparency…I don’t have it all figured out yet. But what I do have no one can take away from me. I know I have what it takes to be the V I S I O N A R Y of my life.

I am calling you to explore the full potential of your gifts. Do you hear me? The full potential of your gifts that were birthed inside of you. You. They are yours. Stop hiding.

Ready to take the next step? I can’t imagine why you wouldn’t be? Give yourself permission to collaborate with divine inspiration. Use the button to the side to book in your Free Discovery Call with me now.

We’ve got this.

Love always,

I JUST DON’T KNOW WHERE I FIT IN.

I just don’t know where I fit in. I am in one of the happiest times in my life right now, my heart is filled with gratitude like it has never been before. My mindset has transformed from being incredibly negative to radiating with light and positivity I truly believe anything is possible. My love for myself is not bogged down by shame and self-loathing and because of that my love for humanity has grown immensely and I actually get to be of service to people now. It is so beautiful, it is so free, so purposeful and I have SO many people to thank for where I am today. Every one of them is from a different background, a different belief system, a different era, lifestyle…I mean you name it. My tribe is a beautiful work of art each complementing the next and adding beauty to the overall work. So why do I feel this way? Why with all the beauty around do I wonder where I fit in Spiritually? Ah, there’s the kicker.

See, this past year has been incredibly transformative for me in all areas of my life including my spirituality. I have always been intuitive, always been guided, always been able to feel people and see who they are rather quickly. I have always felt deeply connected to the Earth and the mysteries she holds and I have always sung praises to my Creator. I have always deeply loved animals and believed they had access to an awareness that some of us never fully access and I have always believed that there is a mystery to life and why we are here that we will not ever fully understand…there are no clear answers from what I can tell, humbly speaking.

Lately however there seems to be a stirring that is requiring me to address my spirituality at the present moment. Knowing that it has the freedom to change and knowing that it is always growing because I am always learning so I will describe this to the best of my ability. My biggest fear of being labelled a Christian is being lumped into the judgmental, fear-based doctrine that often (not all the time) but often shows up in this label. I have experienced this personally on both sides. I have myself been incredibly judgmental of people in the past and some of my most unloving years to myself and to others has been when I would have called myself a Christian. I’m not super happy about that. And I have also experienced the other side. Now being judged for the slightest of things and even more so, being told by individuals that I am being dangerous with my spirituality, that they “love me” but would like it if I was more careful with what I put out there or write. This I find very confusing. Now, I am wise enough to take all things into consideration and only respond if I feel it necessary as well as I am able to see other people’s perspectives and feel out the underlying triggers for them (thank God for that gifting) so for the most part, I am truly happy to accept their perspective and continue on in my joy and in my journey.

But one of the most recent events has really stirred up a lot of questions in my heart and soul and I believe that by putting these questions and statements out there I will attract answers or will at least, create a peace that seems to be lacking at the current moment.

Perhaps you have felt this way and let me preface that by writing this I am not saying my way is right,  I am not saying I don’t believe in God, I am not saying that I have any answers. This is truly a feeling that has been with me since I was a little child and when I ignored it as an adult it twisted me both physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually so I have learned it is best to not ignore.

Being part of a religious ideology has often felt for me:

  • Feeling restricted by it. Not because of what would be classified as sin but because quite often the restriction felt like control and less about love.
  • I love humanity so much and know what it is like to love a child with such intensity. No matter what, I will never not love my child. The association that this brings up for me in regards to eternity in Hell I struggle with greatly. I have done research through a variety of blogs written by a variety of experts (pastors, reformed Christians, etc) and I cannot find one to date that brings any ease into this horrific example of what life after death is like for so many. If God, is my Heavenly Father, I understand the perspective that children do require discipline but I would never send my son or daughter to their room in a dark and sidious dungeon for all of eternity just because they didn’t believe in me. This is possibly the hardest one for me to come to terms with. Who am I to think of myself as better than anyone else? I am deeply respectful of other people’s beliefs but when I hear this I do not hear eternal love. I hear condemnation. Perhaps this is my own personal struggle? Perhaps I have misunderstood something but when confronted with this something inside of me says, this just doesn’t make sense.
  • When I say things like Mother Earth I am talking about the respect and reverence I have for Creation. She is a gift that has been given to us and yes, she has an energy to her and yes, I call her a she because as a woman I am capable of literally birthing life. Our earth does the same thing even if the only way you can view it is that it was created by God, since God to my understanding is neither a man nor a woman I would love to reference She for when I speak of how beautiful this earth is. Native Americans understood this so well. How to take care of the land, how to not deplete her, how to live with her. Leading me to the next part…
  • What of other teachings? Are we not here to learn from one another or are we here to make everyone believe the same thing? I don’t get it and truthfully even in my most zealous years as a Christian I would completely close myself off to learning about other religions deeming them all below mine. Is this really the way in which we love one another?
  • And then what of people? We were created with free will…created to have conscious minds that process thoughts. We have learned that our body is literally made up of energy which existentially means we are made up of a substance that you can’t even see and the entire planet is made up this way. We were given the tools and the ability to reason, to think of multiple thoughts at the same time, given a vast array of emotions, sensors, problem solving skills and the ability to be as diverse as anything I have ever come across to date on this planet and yet we are meant to all comply under one umbrella thought of what heaven and hell are and whose God is better than the other’s gods, and how many people will actually make it to eternity and whether or not aliens exist and if they do who made them, and was it a bang or a progression into existence and did we actually ride in on a giant turtle or was it physics that created this whole planet and because one book proclaims truth it negates all the other books proclaiming truth and it is okay to abolish a whole culture of people, murder, pillage and rape in the name of your God as long as everyone ends up going to heaven in the end and taking care of the poor is not enough if it is not done in God’s name and is deemed less serving if it is done just for a sheer love of a human being and don’t even get me started on the whole gay rights thing because at one point a beautiful African American soul could not even use the same bathroom as a Caucasian and were viewed as below any western idea of religion and what of purgatory, reincarnation, ghosts, I mean, the sheer volume of all the discrepancies is overwhelming isn’t it? I mean…seriously, what of people? All religions have suffered the ill-effects of wanting power and dominion over something or someone. All.

Listen, I have had the most beautiful visions and spiritual experiences with God. Whenever I feel compelled to pray it is Him that I pray to because I believe He exists. I just struggle with the concept that I am the only person in this Universe that has the exact right answer. So some may want to say to me, “But Cassie, where is your FAITH?” And I would politely have to ask them, “Where is yours?” I have faith. In fact, allowing myself to believe again has been the most surrendering of all processes that I have been through up to this point in my life so please, this is not a question of faith.

This is a question of trying to understand something that I do not believe we were ever meant to fully understand.

If God is totally your thing and you are incredibly happy, fulfilled, at peace, doing your thing, loving people, being kind, receiving the differences on this planet and are a firm believer in the Bible I commend you. I think that is truly beautiful and I totally get it. In a sense, I am right there with you. But there are some questions that linger in my spirit that cause me to really look at all of humanity knowing that we are all far from perfect. I want to love my neighbour for who they were created to be casting no judgment and being respectful of human life and individual choice.

There are 4200 different kinds of religion on this planet. I assure you I have not had the time to research them all and am not an expert in this area at all. As I mentioned before I do not have the answers…I only have questions but in this process of trying to understand I ask that people be kind. Please do not tell me that you are worried about my soul because I believe in Light and that there is light in this world. Please do not send me personal messages telling me a symbol is a gay rights symbol as if to imply that I should somehow not be using it and then proceed to say you “love me.” When someone is on a journey who do you think they will want to turn to for guidance when a question arises as to where they should head next? To the person who shows up in the world as being loving and accepting of ALL people no matter their stage in life or the person who is constantly trying to steer them for their own gain?

I understand the importance of protecting one’s Spirit. If there is as much good as I believe there is in the World I also know there is just as much bad. Even within Scriptures there are contradicting teachings that require a delicate analysis to take the time period, customs, and any other language variables into account and I am not a scholar in this but truthfully, I’m not trying to prove my views as right. If you see someone that you know doing something that puzzles you, triggers you, gives you a compelling desire to speak to them so that you can “help” them and you do not first proceed with, “Hey, how’s it going?” then stop. Ask yourself, why do I feel compelled to say something? What has this person said that is causing me to feel this way? More often than not, whatever that person said probably has more to do with how you are feeling about yourself and is more than likely attached to your own story of pain than anything else.

If we could just stop trying to find the faults in one another and adopted the mindset of understanding and engaging in the right questions there would be so many less misunderstandings, so much less segregation and little need to control. I am responsible for how I show up in this world, as are you. I am one person with one perspective and what I have shared with you today is a part of my journey. I don’t know what tomorrow brings and what new information will be discovered but I do know that I am more at peace in giving myself permission to explore, to learn and to listen to other people’s individual stories. The more I listen I realize that we are not as different as we might think and truly the more beauty I see in our differences.

Even in this commentary there are so many more things I could bring up that I truly don’t understand. I’m like a kid, trying to figure out where I fit into all the happenings in the World. I am not trying to sway anyone to follow me and truthfully, I am more than likely wrong about a lot of stuff but I know where my intentions are. My intention is to L O V E people. To tell them that they are so beautiful. To show them that they are a gift to this world. My heart’s desire is for P E A C E. If you have come across any literature, videos, or if you just resonate with this on some level would you graciously pass that info along or send me a message? I am open to listening but will not put up with judgment and narrow minded view points.

 

XO,