Her Art of Surrender

It is time to celebrate beautiful souls! This past year I decided to take my writing to a whole new level but I didn’t do it alone! I became a lead author and with the support of family and friends and my incredible publishing company, Goldenbrick Road Publishing House, and the nineteen women who graciously welcomed me into their stories, we wrote a book!!

It is called, Her Art of Surrender. A collection of stories about letting go of the past and embracing the soul. This book is beautiful and receiving some of the most amazing reviews I will post those below!

This book has to be in the hands of every woman you know including yourself. 

If you would like me to come and do a reading or teach on the art of surrender and what it means to create peace within yourself no matter what is happening around you feel free to reach out anytime. 

This book will teach you to look at life through an interesting lens. The stories are real, the women are women you would pass by on the street. Literally, you might have already! We are sharing our stories because we know that by sharing them, the facade falls away, the walls of shame come down, and the opportunity to open the heart to healing increases ten-fold. 

This is why we write. This is why we feel. This is why we share. To extend a hand to a beautiful soul and to remind her, it is safe now to journey the road of surrender.

Pick up a copy please by going to this link, Her Art of Surrender, and use my coupon code for 20% off – Cassie20 – the code applies to all the books on the site.

Thank you for the love always!! 

 

P.S. Use my coupon code, Cassie20 for 20% off – the code applies to all the books on the site too! – Click here for your copy  – Her Art of Surrender. <<<

Believe in the Rhythm of Your Soul

And just like that, she didn’t need to be seen.
She didn’t need the acknowledgment,
The looks, likes or loves.
She felt within herself the truth that her time had come.
She was energy and like the flowers she passed on her daily walks,
She blossomed whether anyone cared or not.
She blossomed because she could,
And she was beautiful like all the flowers that had gone before her.
Adding to the whole of creation and dancing under the sun.
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Sealed with love,
By: Cassie Jeans
#poetryforthesoul 


I want to write about soul. I want to write about truth. I want to unravel, dismantle all the false ways we live our lives. I want us to play with our shadows and resist the urge to shrink, downsize our life, play at a fraction of our ability. I want us to remember what we are connected to so we never forget our birthright. 

Come home. Please. If you have been wandering out there in the world for too long and you long for a place of solace, come home. The place you seek is already inside of you. The cocoon of shelter you long for is a deep breath away. Question the systems around you and choose the ones you want to participate in. What someone else does is not what you have to do. When was the last time you asked yourself, “What do I want?”

Can you answer that question from the voice of recognition? The voice that echoes in the caverns of your soul? Have you given yourself the freedom and the liberty to explore without restriction? Come home. When the world aches around you and within you, where do you go? 

There are angels and lightworkers, preachers and monks, teachers and wise seekers and all of us/you/them have an offering for you. Every day we are being offered the opportunity to be a part of the miracle of life. Every day we are given the chance to change and start walking towards the desires of our heart. Why wouldn’t today be the perfect day to dive into your soul?

I implore you. I feel you. I hear you. Even when life is feeling chaotic and fractured, you carry within you the sanctity of home. When will you rest long enough to feel the earth beneath your feet and ground yourself into what you know?

And with this message, I ask that you seal your worries and speak to them from your heart. I ask that the emotions that want to frantically explode out of you be guided by your soul and you learn the art of communicating from within the expanse of the wisdom within you. Surrender beautiful child. Adorn yourself with light and understand your shadows. Nothing is denied to you, now is the time to rise.

 

 

 


Keeping you in the loop about what is happening in my small corner of the world.

The Life Intentionally Summit is happening this September and I would love to meet those who feel the call to do something more with the short time they have on the planet. Tap into something bigger than yourself and come to listen to me and other women speak live at the Life Intentionally Summit. 

In the Bedroom w/Cassie Jeans – words that awaken the soul podcast is on its 10th episode and I am in awe of the beauty of what is pouring out from this interaction with the Divine. Listen to the latest episode here.

Ireland – a land I know I have been to because I can feel her soil even though physically I have not been graced to walk her land yet. I am planning a writing retreat for the New Year and I am putting this on your radar with two intentions. One – I would love to hear from you if you are planning to attend. Two – if you are planning to attend I would love to know what you would love to do with the time there. I have oodles of ideas but what you are craving is important for me to know as well. Email me at hello@cassiejeans.com with the subject: Ireland – fill me in on the details of what you would love to dive into.

Oh! And I am writing a solo book, feeling that it will have similar vibes to this blog and I have come across a tool that I adore that is helping me put together a book plan (like a business plan but for books). Publishers, literary agents are requiring people to do this now. If you are serious about writing a book and you want to receive an advancement to write it I am HIGHLY recommending this book plan. You can learn more about it here – Big Beautiful Book Plan.

So much love for you dreamers. Thank you for spending time with me here. xo.

Willing to Change Course

I do believe we must explore passion in a way that terrifies us. A good scare, the scare that reminds us we have air in our lungs and we might as well do something with the breaths we’ve been given.

We must be willing to come to a crashing halt on what we will no longer tolerate and we must, we must be willing to change course.

To change direction takes a great deal of courage.
To sit with the thoughts of what could have been is worse though.

Sit still today. And in that stillness ask for courage, strength, perseverance, determination, patience, and a never-ending supply of imagination.

This is the fuel that we have access to.
This is the call of the creative and the Wild.

To live every breath as if it were a song and celebration.

Sealed with light,
By: Cassie Jeans


Let that fire settle into the heart and the soul. There is a reason why there has to be a sense of urgency and patience in everything we do. An urgency to propel us forward, patience to see it through. Last night on my podcast, In the Bedroom, I talked about vision and remembrance. To know that something is truly possible and can be created from your hands, your lips, your mind, your words, your eyes, your body. 

If you think of the way we are designed it is one of the most beautiful realizations to recognize that within yourself, there is a set of creative tools. Our literal bodies are designed to express our soul through the medium that we choose. Meaning, the human experience is to create and innovate and to explore all that is within and all that is outside of our body/mind/heart/soul.

Is that not the most exciting thing ever? To see yourself as part of creation and not just something that was created? To see yourself as an element of the great design and in your very presence, you reflect out into the world what you believe is possible. We are all walking testimonies of our beliefs. And that one may sting a little if right now there is a feeling that, “I’m not living up to something…this isn’t going right…why does this keep happening…will I ever get there?” 

Check in with your beliefs. This is something I have to do time and time again. My son is a great reminder and nudges me beyond my limitations because of the way he dreams. When he shares with me what he wants to create I must hold the space for infinite belief in all that is possible. This is a sacred gift he is giving me, his desires are no joke and it is important that as parents, teachers, caregivers, grandparents, we do not project our limitations upon them. Even if we think it protects them, it does not. It only stifles what they innately know is possible and this may be the very reason why the phrase, we are all walking testimonies of our beliefs, stings. At some point, someone, something, an experience taught you to go against what you knew was innately possible and ever since then, maybe you have been trying to adapt into someone that isn’t really your truth?

Give yourself permission to express your truth. I am sure there is a soul nudge happening in your life right now.  As it says above:

Sit still today. And in that stillness ask for courage, strength, perseverance, determination, patience, and a never-ending supply of imagination.

You are love(d).

Sealed with light,

 

 

 


Fresh podcast is up on all your favourite listening platforms. It’s another late night ramble brimming with passion, fire, and love. Give it a listen now, In the Bedroom w/ Cassie Jeans – words that awaken the soul.

I have been asked by a few people if I still do coaching or if I would do a call with them while they are navigating their way through some blocked emotions. If you are seeking some sort of solace for the soul I offer soul chats that can be booked directly here – Soul Chats.

Thank you for sharing the space here. xoxo

Breaking the Cycle of Shame

“I mean fuck Mark, do you get off on this or something?”

Words…words…the power of words. Before I knew it I wrote it and it slipped out of my hands and onto a most irritating person.

Now, some of you reading this may be like, ‘Cassie, how could you say that? You write the most beautiful stuff…where did this come from?’ And others reading this may be thinking, ‘not seeing the big deal here.’ Oh the beauty of perspective.

If I may give a backstory to explain why this is causing me such grievance? I recently hired this gentleman to help me with an FB ad. To not go into the annoying details of this transaction I exercised an adequate and compassionate amount of patience and trust in his ability to produce the work that he claimed to be able to do only to find myself in a not-so-pleasant situation. Through a variety of emails sent back and forth over weeks and a refusal on this person’s part to speak to me on the phone I could see that whatever it was that I paid for was not being handled to the best of his ability (or maybe that was his best, who knows) and I had to ask for a refund. The timelines were way off, the results were dismal and the agreements on what was to be delivered were not being delivered.

Truthfully, I don’t like these parts of business. I don’t like conflict. I don’t like drama. I don’t like that this situation brought out the worst in me. There it is, right there. The reason why it is 12:54 AM and I cannot sleep.

Shame, guilt, remorse. I don’t like that through the entire experience I was gracious, kind, understanding and sympathetic to the point of me not standing up for myself in my business and at the very end when I felt I was being completely ignored and steam rolled over I lashed out.

No one would know this though right? No one would know that I said the words that were not at all warranted, no one would know that I feel so crummy that I actually let my ego get in the way of my soul. But that’s not what I’m about. I’m not about only showing the pretty stuff, the love stuff, the “I am calm and centered and desire that all people be loved” part. Yeah, I usually am. I usually don’t hit the send button before I’ve had a chance to cool down but this one got to me.

On any level being ignored really sucks you know? Feeling as if you as a person are not actually being heard…that really gets to me. I pride myself on my ability to be able to listen to a person’s story and respond with love, compassion, understanding. When I found myself in a situation where not only was I being ignored but also I wasn’t really being heard and realized I was being pushed off I retaliated and that really gets to me.

So why share this? Because there is power when we do not carry our shame in silence. I have been thinking about this all day long. I have filed for a dispute and actually have a case so I know I’m not crazy and unreasonable. I have sought guidance and refused to publicly name this person to give him the benefit of the doubt to attempt to rectify the situation and all because of that one sentence I feel like shit. I let myself down and a big part of me feels like I let my community down.

I don’t want to be the coach, heck, I don’t want to be the person who can share only the good stuff and not the stuff that makes me feel less credible. I can share it all and not attach myself to the outcome. I refuse to live my life based on other people’s standards. These are the raw moments…these are the moments when the internal soul shift changes take place.

I know this was a lesson and that even writing this tonight has allowed me to reaffirm within myself how crippling shame and guilt can be in our lives. Will we always live each moment of our lives making the best decisions for ourselves and those around us? No. And when I allow myself to not beat myself up for not responding from love and share the yucky moments in life for whomever is battling with their own demons in their mind I realign my vibrations with the intention to amend the situation and also, to speak into anyone’s life right now who is in the cycle of shame.

It is a vicious cycle and it will steal your joy every single time. You are enough, I am enough. The message of self worth showed up for me beautifully throughout this whole situation and I hope that you are feeling those currents in your life right now as well. Self worth and living a life that is compassionate towards others does not mean choosing to be voiceless when you are being mistreated. Self worth means you speak your truth even when it may not be reciprocated well and you love yourself even when you don’t respond well.

These words do not mean I do not love people. These words mean that I am people. No one is above you, no one is below you. I accept myself for who I am and the love that created me and I ask you to do the same for who you are and the love that was poured into you.

Affirmation: I am at peace with the humanness and the spirit of who I am. I acknowledge both and treat myself and others with compassion, love and understanding.

I can realign..and so can you. The cycle breaks when we own our shame story. (Thank you Brene Brown for you infinite wisdom). So in writing this I literally break my shame story and know that I am still me. I am still worthy of love and abundance and I do not have to second guess who I am. I am free to step into a new day leaving yesterday where it is and embracing the delicious choices that are always there for me.

If this message really spoke to you and you have been carrying around your own shame story for too long find your own way to share it. It doesn’t have to be as public as this is (this is just how I roll) but you can always speak to a trusted friend, email me if you like, or just even get the words out on paper for when that moment of courage strikes you and you are ready to share.

You are never alone in your journey. Love and peace always…yep, I can say those words too. I love me in my mess and when I am in alignment too.

xoxo

*name was changed in order to respect the integrity of the mentioned person as I am not into shaming. And if your name is Mark, I am sure you are a rad human being!

Entrepreneurialism Isn’t For the Box Cake Eaters.

Seriously, my clients are smarter than me. Every woman I have worked with is dazzlingly brilliant. I don’t know how they do it. We work on some serious life stuff …fears, doubts, self-limiting beliefs, past wounds, current choices and in what seems like no time at all they’re doing there thing and totally rocking it!

I mean, it blows me away to see how fast they are able to get right in there. What was once absolutely terrifying has now become one of their greatest strengths. For instance, Ana, my lovely soul sister from Mexico took my 6 Week Self-Worth ad Business Mindset Class a few weeks ago. She was terrified of doing Live Videos to promote her business. After the 6 weeks of class she was so certain in her mission and reason for wanting to have a business that made an impact she leveraged her fear and is now doing live videos daily!

She had to really dig deep to say yes to this class. We talked about it over messenger and had known each other for a while now and I could just tell that she really wanted to but money was a big obstacle.

Two of the biggest objections you will face with people who want to purchase from you are:

  1. Not enough money.
  2. Not enough time.

I’ll share with you the how these objections are linked to self-worth further down. Ana had a hard choice to make right?  I mean, I’ve been there! Looking at your bank account and looking at your dreams and going…”these two don’t line up here.”

The truth is, in the beginning they don’t. That’s why creating something from scratch is so hard. Entrepreneurialism isn’t for the box cake eaters. It’s super easy to go the store, buy the box of cake mix and in 25 minutes you’ve got a GMO filled sub standard cake right? But it satisfies the sweet tooth and if you top it with ice cream goes down pretty nicely.

But that’s not the cake you tell all your friends about right? It’s not the one that everyone asks you for the recipe for because they’re itching to make it too is it? Nope. The cake that everyone wants is the triple chocolate delight cake. The one that you have to go to three different stores to for all the ingredients.

The cake that requires patience and a process. It’s not all thrown into the same bowl. You have to use three bowls, tons of measuring spoons, the right mixer, the exact right pan and the temperature and position of the rack has to be exact in order to have the, “I want what she’s got” reaction from everyone in the room.

Guess what cake Ana wants? When she first started in my 6 Week Class she was scared to go live. Even though we could all see that she spoke so beautifully and truthfully, the first time I heard her speak I was like, “Oh my gosh…she is amazing. She has a gift here and I cannot wait to see her using it to its full potential.”

Watching her in her Masks Off FB Group showing up consistently, providing solutions, answering questions, doing the very thing that only a few weeks ago truly scared her is quite literally actually sharing the cake with the people that will love it the most.

She made my cake better. And I’m so down with that. If every woman I coach far surpasses me I will be truly happy and grateful. Why? Because I didn’t spend all this time, all this money, all this sourcing out of information to keep it all to myself.

I did this so I could share my gifts…so I could share my cake. (High five for awesome cake analogies right?!)

So why do people let money and time get in the way of what they truly want? What they dream about? Self-Worth. I know, I know…sounds like a long shot because we tend to think in logistics and realism. But truly, self-worth is the biggest reason why people let something like time and money get in the way of their life’s purpose.

If you believed beyond a shadow of a doubt that you might face serious adversity, quite possibly end up bankrupt, homeless, sleeping on a friends couch, that you would face ridicule and doubt from family and friends but in the end, you would have done, created, celebrated achieving your life long goal…you would do it right?

Not necessarily. You would only go through all of that because you believed you deserved for things to be different. You would have to believe that you are worth it. That you matter. That your cause matters. That your dreams matter. You would actually have to see yourself as having value in self.

Money is a great excuse. Time is another awesome one that you can look back on years down the road (if you get years) and think. Gosh, I’m so glad I spent the last 50 years living in my comfort zone of unrealized dreams and certain disappointments. I’m so glad I never took a risk and played it safe. Come to think of it, I don’t think that’s what we say at all. I think we dream of saying the exact opposite.

Like, remember the time when I had to sleep on my friends couch because I literally invested all my funds into the craziest idea…(Elon Musk, Tesla, he did this) or that time I thought my marriage was going to fall apart because we were so stressed financially, it took real courage to stick that through. Remember when we finally bought our dream home…I remember crying in your arms because I was so happy. Remember when we didn’t give up on our dreams…and look babe, we lived just about all of them.

That’s the triple chocolate cake right there. That’s what it means to build the belief up in yourself and your God-given birth right to the point that come hell or high water you’re doing this. Some may say this is stupid and irresponsible. I would say this is doing whatever it takes to live a life without regrets.

I want to leave behind a legacy. I want my words to matter and stand the test of time. I live my life with this at the fore front.

What is it that you want? If you struggle with believing anything is possible and that you can see that there are areas in your life that believing you deserve to live out your dreams feels way too scary you will want to begin my Free 4-Part Video Series on How to Claim Your Self Worth. Best place to start! As well as picking up the Gifts of Imperfection By Brené Brown.

You are worth it and can live life in the flow of your best self!

Love always,

 

 

 

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Does Money Stop Us From Going After Our Dreams?

Super personal share…

I could finally put gas in the car. See, for months and months I would pull up at the gas station or would be checking out at the grocery store and I could feel the anxiety mounting up inside of me…

…was there money in the bank? Did I have enough to afford this? If I did that meant I wouldn’t have enough to buy the kids the running shoes they needed…let alone buy myself anything.

I hated it. Maybe you’ve felt this before too?

Building a business from scratch is one of the hardest things you will ever do but there’s a silver lining here. Keep reading.

The greatest investment you can make in your life is yourself. There is no other gift you can give to this world than the gift of a woman fully unleashed and uninhibited.

Truly, you are the gift.

I have come to realize this through many agonizing months of thinking I was a complete and utter failure. That what I was doing wasn’t going to make a difference. That on the outside…

…sure, it may have looked amazing but if you took a look at my bank account I was drowning.

In my heart and in my mind I had it all but patience is the silver lining in all of this. That attribute of the human soul alone will feed you and your family for the future. Did you hear me there?

Patience, belief, trust, grit, tenacity, faith, perseverance. This is what feeds the soul. This is what feeds the future.

I smile as I think about sharing my story on stage. Housewife from small town, creates millions because she chose to follow her heart. How did she do it? She fucking loved people. lol…and had a heck of a lot of help along the way. (SO many people I can thank here…seriously…I could probably thank you!! lol)

So here’s the deal. I want you to have your own version of your very own story. I don’t know where you are at right now but my hunch is that you are a dreamer of the highest being.

My hunch is that you believe with only half of your heart right now that you have a purpose and a calling. My hunch is that you’re scared to feel deeply again and that disappointment has plagued your life for far too long.

Would you like to be free now? Free to live life on your terms. Free to kick fear in the ass and let her fuel you as opposed to paralyze you.

Total transparency…I don’t have it all figured out yet. But what I do have no one can take away from me. I know I have what it takes to be the V I S I O N A R Y of my life.

I am calling you to explore the full potential of your gifts. Do you hear me? The full potential of your gifts that were birthed inside of you. You. They are yours. Stop hiding.

Ready to take the next step? I can’t imagine why you wouldn’t be? Give yourself permission to collaborate with divine inspiration. Use the button to the side to book in your Free Discovery Call with me now.

We’ve got this.

Love always,

W I S D O M

Wisdom showed up and beckoned to her.

Come a little closer and I will show you a mountainous range, with sleek peaks and jagged rocks. With torturous winds and dark caves, where nothing can grow and no light can reach and there I will perch you and keep you safe.

The girl answered: “Why would you want to take me there? When I am comfortable here, bathed in light and luminosity, my every need is met, my heart longs for nothing, surely you can see that I am content?”

Wisdom asked that she come a little closer, so as to remove her from her space.

It is this that requires reckoning. This that requires forging. Content serves the weak and feeble minds, the limbs that cannot be supported, that are frail and break. Plump and unable to withstand a moment in a barren land.

Puzzled and now rather fearful the girl questions again, “why I must ask, do you want to perch me there? If you are so ill towards my content.”

And then wisdom smiles as she always does when her student gives way to their own Knowing.

For you know you carry the strength within you to persevere in this barren land.

You know the promises that have been laid before you.

You know the Light that reigns supremely in you.

You know that the moment you enter into this place that you will finally be using your gifts and not letting them go to waste.

The content you feel will be short lived and will quickly turn to boredom and resentment for inside of you a warrior remains.

And in that moment the girl feels the Knowing come alive inside of her and this shakes her to her core. She looks back knowing she cannot go back, knowing she can only go forward for even standing still will only drive her mad.

Looking ahead there does not appear to be anything, only a feeling, only a promise, but the path she must take she does not know so she lets her feet do the walking and her heart lead her as she walks towards the barrenness, towards the jagged rocks and sleek terrain.

She goes because of the awakening. She goes because of the light she can see, even when it all looks so dark, for she knows she carries it inside of her.

She knows that as she walks new ground the ground will support her. Will change beneath her. Will soften and become supple, able to reproduce and bear life beneath her. She knows that the darkness will not consume her. That her footing will only grow stronger. She knows that the winds will not sway her. That the promise of strength will not leave her and that love and light will reign supreme in her.

She knows that in order to feel content again, she must journey through places she has not been before, so she can do things she has not done before, so she can share wisdom to ears that have not listened before.

She knows there was nothing wrong with what she was doing before for how can you judge a child that has just come into the world? But with the truth that she does now know, in that she can never forget.

With wisdom beside her, fear all around her and a vision before her she begins her ascent, knowing she will never step in this space again, knowing that her time of being content is temporarily over, and with this knowing she finds a peace she has not felt before and a race in her heart that beats like a drum guiding her feet as she forges her own path.

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This is what the journey towards living the life you dream of can often feel like. You know there is something more calling to you but in the beginning, that is all you feel because you have never walked this road before, all you know is that it leads you forward.

The “HOW” is irrelevant when it comes to your journey. You literally figure out the how as you go along. 

Have you been wanting to start something, forge your own path for quite some time now but have been struggling with believing that you have what it takes to make it successful. The more research I do in mindset the more I can see the connection between self-worth and living the life of your dreams. This is the beginning work, recognizing and trusting in your gifts.

If you have been touched by this message it is because it speaks to a place in your heart that has been lying dormant for too long. A place in your heart that longs to explore and be challenged. If you are struggling with self-worth and you know this is why you are not living in to your full potential you may be interested in booking in a 30 minute Discovery Call for free with me. The link is on this page. I look forward to hearing from you and rediscovering the truth that you have known and are ready to commit to.

Love always,

I JUST DON’T KNOW WHERE I FIT IN.

I just don’t know where I fit in. I am in one of the happiest times in my life right now, my heart is filled with gratitude like it has never been before. My mindset has transformed from being incredibly negative to radiating with light and positivity I truly believe anything is possible. My love for myself is not bogged down by shame and self-loathing and because of that my love for humanity has grown immensely and I actually get to be of service to people now. It is so beautiful, it is so free, so purposeful and I have SO many people to thank for where I am today. Every one of them is from a different background, a different belief system, a different era, lifestyle…I mean you name it. My tribe is a beautiful work of art each complementing the next and adding beauty to the overall work. So why do I feel this way? Why with all the beauty around do I wonder where I fit in Spiritually? Ah, there’s the kicker.

See, this past year has been incredibly transformative for me in all areas of my life including my spirituality. I have always been intuitive, always been guided, always been able to feel people and see who they are rather quickly. I have always felt deeply connected to the Earth and the mysteries she holds and I have always sung praises to my Creator. I have always deeply loved animals and believed they had access to an awareness that some of us never fully access and I have always believed that there is a mystery to life and why we are here that we will not ever fully understand…there are no clear answers from what I can tell, humbly speaking.

Lately however there seems to be a stirring that is requiring me to address my spirituality at the present moment. Knowing that it has the freedom to change and knowing that it is always growing because I am always learning so I will describe this to the best of my ability. My biggest fear of being labelled a Christian is being lumped into the judgmental, fear-based doctrine that often (not all the time) but often shows up in this label. I have experienced this personally on both sides. I have myself been incredibly judgmental of people in the past and some of my most unloving years to myself and to others has been when I would have called myself a Christian. I’m not super happy about that. And I have also experienced the other side. Now being judged for the slightest of things and even more so, being told by individuals that I am being dangerous with my spirituality, that they “love me” but would like it if I was more careful with what I put out there or write. This I find very confusing. Now, I am wise enough to take all things into consideration and only respond if I feel it necessary as well as I am able to see other people’s perspectives and feel out the underlying triggers for them (thank God for that gifting) so for the most part, I am truly happy to accept their perspective and continue on in my joy and in my journey.

But one of the most recent events has really stirred up a lot of questions in my heart and soul and I believe that by putting these questions and statements out there I will attract answers or will at least, create a peace that seems to be lacking at the current moment.

Perhaps you have felt this way and let me preface that by writing this I am not saying my way is right,  I am not saying I don’t believe in God, I am not saying that I have any answers. This is truly a feeling that has been with me since I was a little child and when I ignored it as an adult it twisted me both physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually so I have learned it is best to not ignore.

Being part of a religious ideology has often felt for me:

  • Feeling restricted by it. Not because of what would be classified as sin but because quite often the restriction felt like control and less about love.
  • I love humanity so much and know what it is like to love a child with such intensity. No matter what, I will never not love my child. The association that this brings up for me in regards to eternity in Hell I struggle with greatly. I have done research through a variety of blogs written by a variety of experts (pastors, reformed Christians, etc) and I cannot find one to date that brings any ease into this horrific example of what life after death is like for so many. If God, is my Heavenly Father, I understand the perspective that children do require discipline but I would never send my son or daughter to their room in a dark and sidious dungeon for all of eternity just because they didn’t believe in me. This is possibly the hardest one for me to come to terms with. Who am I to think of myself as better than anyone else? I am deeply respectful of other people’s beliefs but when I hear this I do not hear eternal love. I hear condemnation. Perhaps this is my own personal struggle? Perhaps I have misunderstood something but when confronted with this something inside of me says, this just doesn’t make sense.
  • When I say things like Mother Earth I am talking about the respect and reverence I have for Creation. She is a gift that has been given to us and yes, she has an energy to her and yes, I call her a she because as a woman I am capable of literally birthing life. Our earth does the same thing even if the only way you can view it is that it was created by God, since God to my understanding is neither a man nor a woman I would love to reference She for when I speak of how beautiful this earth is. Native Americans understood this so well. How to take care of the land, how to not deplete her, how to live with her. Leading me to the next part…
  • What of other teachings? Are we not here to learn from one another or are we here to make everyone believe the same thing? I don’t get it and truthfully even in my most zealous years as a Christian I would completely close myself off to learning about other religions deeming them all below mine. Is this really the way in which we love one another?
  • And then what of people? We were created with free will…created to have conscious minds that process thoughts. We have learned that our body is literally made up of energy which existentially means we are made up of a substance that you can’t even see and the entire planet is made up this way. We were given the tools and the ability to reason, to think of multiple thoughts at the same time, given a vast array of emotions, sensors, problem solving skills and the ability to be as diverse as anything I have ever come across to date on this planet and yet we are meant to all comply under one umbrella thought of what heaven and hell are and whose God is better than the other’s gods, and how many people will actually make it to eternity and whether or not aliens exist and if they do who made them, and was it a bang or a progression into existence and did we actually ride in on a giant turtle or was it physics that created this whole planet and because one book proclaims truth it negates all the other books proclaiming truth and it is okay to abolish a whole culture of people, murder, pillage and rape in the name of your God as long as everyone ends up going to heaven in the end and taking care of the poor is not enough if it is not done in God’s name and is deemed less serving if it is done just for a sheer love of a human being and don’t even get me started on the whole gay rights thing because at one point a beautiful African American soul could not even use the same bathroom as a Caucasian and were viewed as below any western idea of religion and what of purgatory, reincarnation, ghosts, I mean, the sheer volume of all the discrepancies is overwhelming isn’t it? I mean…seriously, what of people? All religions have suffered the ill-effects of wanting power and dominion over something or someone. All.

Listen, I have had the most beautiful visions and spiritual experiences with God. Whenever I feel compelled to pray it is Him that I pray to because I believe He exists. I just struggle with the concept that I am the only person in this Universe that has the exact right answer. So some may want to say to me, “But Cassie, where is your FAITH?” And I would politely have to ask them, “Where is yours?” I have faith. In fact, allowing myself to believe again has been the most surrendering of all processes that I have been through up to this point in my life so please, this is not a question of faith.

This is a question of trying to understand something that I do not believe we were ever meant to fully understand.

If God is totally your thing and you are incredibly happy, fulfilled, at peace, doing your thing, loving people, being kind, receiving the differences on this planet and are a firm believer in the Bible I commend you. I think that is truly beautiful and I totally get it. In a sense, I am right there with you. But there are some questions that linger in my spirit that cause me to really look at all of humanity knowing that we are all far from perfect. I want to love my neighbour for who they were created to be casting no judgment and being respectful of human life and individual choice.

There are 4200 different kinds of religion on this planet. I assure you I have not had the time to research them all and am not an expert in this area at all. As I mentioned before I do not have the answers…I only have questions but in this process of trying to understand I ask that people be kind. Please do not tell me that you are worried about my soul because I believe in Light and that there is light in this world. Please do not send me personal messages telling me a symbol is a gay rights symbol as if to imply that I should somehow not be using it and then proceed to say you “love me.” When someone is on a journey who do you think they will want to turn to for guidance when a question arises as to where they should head next? To the person who shows up in the world as being loving and accepting of ALL people no matter their stage in life or the person who is constantly trying to steer them for their own gain?

I understand the importance of protecting one’s Spirit. If there is as much good as I believe there is in the World I also know there is just as much bad. Even within Scriptures there are contradicting teachings that require a delicate analysis to take the time period, customs, and any other language variables into account and I am not a scholar in this but truthfully, I’m not trying to prove my views as right. If you see someone that you know doing something that puzzles you, triggers you, gives you a compelling desire to speak to them so that you can “help” them and you do not first proceed with, “Hey, how’s it going?” then stop. Ask yourself, why do I feel compelled to say something? What has this person said that is causing me to feel this way? More often than not, whatever that person said probably has more to do with how you are feeling about yourself and is more than likely attached to your own story of pain than anything else.

If we could just stop trying to find the faults in one another and adopted the mindset of understanding and engaging in the right questions there would be so many less misunderstandings, so much less segregation and little need to control. I am responsible for how I show up in this world, as are you. I am one person with one perspective and what I have shared with you today is a part of my journey. I don’t know what tomorrow brings and what new information will be discovered but I do know that I am more at peace in giving myself permission to explore, to learn and to listen to other people’s individual stories. The more I listen I realize that we are not as different as we might think and truly the more beauty I see in our differences.

Even in this commentary there are so many more things I could bring up that I truly don’t understand. I’m like a kid, trying to figure out where I fit into all the happenings in the World. I am not trying to sway anyone to follow me and truthfully, I am more than likely wrong about a lot of stuff but I know where my intentions are. My intention is to L O V E people. To tell them that they are so beautiful. To show them that they are a gift to this world. My heart’s desire is for P E A C E. If you have come across any literature, videos, or if you just resonate with this on some level would you graciously pass that info along or send me a message? I am open to listening but will not put up with judgment and narrow minded view points.

 

XO,

 

R E F I N E D

Girl…let nothing define you.
Let nothing come in between you and that passionate, fiery maven inside of you.
Let no person, man or woman, redirect you.
Let no negative banter, mind-numbing chatter stop you from claiming what is rightfully yours.

Yes, you will have to work for this. Yes, you will cut cords for this. And yes, you will be refined by this…

The refining is your prize. Not the jewels, exotic destinations, red-sole shoes or anything else that tantalizes the sensations.

It’s the refinement of your character, the polishing of your heart, the poise, the exhale of your Soul that is what you are living towards.

See, if all we wanted was a decent life without too many bumps in the road we could have it…but that’s not what we want…is it?

We aren’t afraid to get a little dirty, to test limits and to explore boundaries. We aren’t hung up on what everyone else is doing because we, in ourselves, are creating.

We are Mavens, we are connected to lineage of sisterhood and elegance and we are not bound by societal rules.

For all my soul-driven, sensual, fiery women I say we fucking dance. I say we unleash words stored in our hearts and we let those that would try to take from us know, that they can have everything but…

…they can never have the beat that joins us together as we dance. It is and has always been in our hips, in the way we bring life to this world, in the way we speak and mesmerize.

Yes, balance is always required here…yes, masculinity is always respected here…but this rhythm that is stirring in our hearts when we say, “Rise Sister Rise” awakens us fully to walk in our Light.

Gratitude for Rebecca Campbell and all the women that came before her and all that come after her.

My heart is full, my mind is brimming, my eyes are open, my mouth is ready to speak, my hands are ready to feel, my arms are ready to hold, my legs are ready to walk the journey that only I can tell…

You have this too, this passionate soul living in you. All you must do is never forget her, nurture her always and believe that what she is speaking to you is For You and will bless others because of the Love that is so present in you. Dig deeper. 

Love always,